bring nerh~

i'm so boring now la..
waiting mr.thosmas...
he said traffic jam...lol..

v plan to gmy ltr...
bt i feel...tat plan sure wil nt sucess la....
hahha.
its ok..tdy cnt..stil gt other day...

i want DIET !!!
is fat now....
sad man~~

tdy i miss class class..
becos i realy cant wake up..
even mr.thomass has call me 10 time n more..
bt i totally dint heard any rintones...
sleep like a pig...hahha..

I CNT MISS CLASS ANYMORE..

feel recently i become lazy again..
hw cum har..
cnt like this la wey...
elvy soon..
hahaha.

i dun wan wate my mum money ..
i feel guilty...
T.T

i wan study hard..
bt i ....realy din try my best ..
bitch me..
haiz..

STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!
STUDY HARD..ELVY SOON..
U CN DID IT....

tnite i wanna take dinner v my sista josee ng...
she wan cook 4 me...haha.
so gud leh..
save money...

so miss my family..my mummy..my sista them..
hehe^^

i'm so excited ...
becos friday my frenz xiao yong & aunty them wil come to k.l find us..
gud...^^


summore.
my videoclip hav upload on facebook..
thx jason help me make a nice slideshow...
i like it so much <3
so boring now leh..
wat to do..
i miss him so much...even he nt by my side..
think to cal him..bt scare wil disturb he...
so keep waiting...^^

so sorry..
to make sum1 feel unsafety...
mayb...i already change many ...nt same like be4's me...
bt ...i knw wat i do now..
altot my mind was empty...

i love freedom..
i dun wan who else to control me..
sorry...tats is my life..
please to accept..

i dun wan lost u ....
bt i oso dun wan lost freedom..
u knw??

i admit tat i m nt a person vy gud in show out my feeling....
even i sad...i love...
everything i jz try keep into my heart..becos..i knew...i wil handle it as weel as i cn..
bt ..i din show out ...doesnt means tat..I NT CARE...

TATS ALL...
...

so tired now...
altot i slip more then 10 hour...
my housemate ...say my face vyvy 'chan'
sad..
hahha...

k la..is time to go out..
mr.thosmas reach...
tata~

happy day ~

hoho..i'm back..

erm...

this week i think i spent rm1000 ++ ..

alot of money rite...

lolz...

nw i totally jiro..

bt its ok la..

happy enuf..hahaa....

i vy thx henry tan & jason find me be their model...

n take alot of nice pic 4 me..

thx....

^^

they say ..next time wan take 4 me again..

becos..time nt enuf this time..

its ok la..

..v stil gt alot of time....

^^

tdy i go bought clothes again..

aiyo.

i dun wan go shopping centre d....

i dun wan waste money liao la..

no money d..mummy ...help ah....hahaa....

tdy ...i so happy..

no class tdy ....then ...me ,carmen ,&thosmas...

v went midvalley 4 movie..

v lost again....around half n hour..

hahhaa..stupid la mr.thomas...hahhaha..

jkjk...xd..

then....v get midvalley...already 4 pm d..

v go bought tiket 1st..5pm movie

tat movie v watched ** THE HUNTING LOVER**

WAT THE STUPID MOVIE!!

hahaha..

boom me 996 nerh....

stil need to wait 1 hour..

so v go sushi king eat abit sushi..

i ate so many la...

haiz...fat again...

be4 ate sushi....i ate chicken rice...hahha..

gai lo...

FAT LIAO ...ELVY SOON...

5pm d...v oso went to cinema d...

muahaha..

get our seat ..

waiting tat movie start...

started ...i though vyvy horrible...

i owayz use my jacket cover my eyes..hahhaa..

carmen...laugh me nerh..so bad...hahaa...

bt after tat..cheh...vyvy shit la...no scary at all...swtzzz...

n vyvy weird la tat movie..

realy boom me 996....hahha...

then..after movie...v came bk cova 4 dinner again..

i ate again...

pizza hut..

nt nice...==..

i wont go next time d...

jz nw so happy when talking phone v sumbody..

hahaa..

he vyvy stupid la.owayz say nonsence thing to me...

y this world gt so stupid guy...hahhaa...

bt i like...hahhhaa..

WASUKA <3

so miss him lar...xd

he say wil come find me soon...

i wait u ....

hahhahaa...

i wan go out v my sister JOSEE NG again...

accompany her 4 dinner...

hahhaaa..

write til here la..

tata...

muacks..<3

TODAY I SO HAPPY ^^

这几天。。。我很开心。。

因为他。。

原本。。我真的想放弃。。

到最后。。

还是一样。。**放不开**

为什么当我想放弃时。。

你却又出现在我面前。。。让我的心犹豫不决。。

让我的心动摇。。

明明知道这是没结果的东西。。。

但我还却这样。。

很多人劝我不要。。

但是。。爱来到。。又怎么能阻挡呢。。

我已经很控制了。。

可是。。

我心到底在想什么。。我到底要什么！！

我真的不明白。。。

只知道。。。我很痛苦。。

今天。。。我很down。。我不懂为什么这样down。。。

感觉我的世界只剩下我。。很空虚。。

我自己要什么。。我都不知道。。

**为什么我要把我的世界弄到这样复杂**

不通。。

头脑现在就好像被阻塞。。

没有心读书。没有心做一切的东西。。

这是我吗？？

为什么我每次只会说。。而却做不到。。

我也明白自己。。

我说要好好读书。。。可是。。又做不到。。

觉得自己跟废人。。没有分别！！！

太没有用了我。。

几时。。

我才能做到我想要的！！！！

T.T

这几天都参着他。。

感觉很棒。。

他很疼我。。我知道。。他对我好我知道。。

但是。。

心里。。。对他。。还是有距离。。。

不懂为什么。。

我真的很怕自己再次受伤。。。

真的很痛。。很痛。。

难以捉摸他的心。。**

看到‘他’。。我却不知所措。。

我不想看到‘他’这样。。。

但我却偏偏弄‘他’伤心。。

我自己也痛。。。

我只知道。。。如果再这样继续。。。

大家都会痛苦！！！

因为。。。

我自己都不知道自己要什么！！！！

烦啊。。

压力阿。。。

~没有能懂我现在的感受！！！

不能睡觉。怎么办~

已经是半夜两点多。。

我还是睡不着。。

心‘卡卡’。。。

天啊。。

您在玩弄我吗？？

刚才跟欣颖讲了电话。。

问了很多。。。

我只能说。。

我真的佩服他。。

他能做到的。。我做不到。。。

一旦爱上了。。

叫人怎么忍受。。

这不是每个人都能做到的。。。

而我现在却在执着什么呢。。

既然我已经做了决定。。。就应该不去想太多。。。

我也感觉。。。

他也放弃了。。

我伤心。。是因为。。给我感觉。。他没事。。

有没有我都无所谓。。

我不想当笨蛋啦。。。

希望过几天我就没事了。

唉！！！

不想了。。

明天早上有课。。。

睡觉睡觉。。。

晚安。。

time wil change everything~

sad lar...wey..

y i so sad geh...y!!!!

haiz....

i need my sister now...

i hope she nw by myside...

T.T

reached k.l d..

lonely feeling come to me again..

i say d..i wan gv up..

is nt want or dun want gv up!!!

is...I MUST GV UP!!!

thn y..i stil think so much....

y i stil cant put down...

y!!!

elvy soon..u knw wat u did now!!!!

T.T

i wan cry!!!i wan cry.....

bt....i cant cry ..my tears cnt falling down...

bt i cn feel...my heart is crying ..

after i send u tat msg...

i knw....& i feel u seem ntg...

y i stil so stupid!!!

y i stil wan miss u ...

y i stil hope to hear ur voice...

T.T....

she is important than me..u love her more..

i knew...

bt y i stil continue...miss u ...

owayz think abt u ..

haiz..

i should wake up...

dun think so much...

from now!!!

I WAN FORGET U ...AS FAST AS POSIBLE!!!!

dun wan get hurt anymore!!!

i believe tat time can change everything..

time cn make me 4get u !!!

gv up ba~~~....=(

elvy soon....

don't love anymore....its hurt!!!!

go bk k.l later..T.T

i was vyvy bored when cum bk hometown...

no frenz here d...

even got..i oso lazy to found them..

so i found my brother LANCE LEE last 9...

v went banglow 'yam cha' & 'keng 'alot of thing...

long time din c him d..

he stil same...

love u bro...

hope cn meet u soon..^^

later wanna go bk k.l d...

i miss my MUMMY & DADDY...**july i wil try find chance cum bk here accompany them few day...hiak hiak**

start study's life again..

haiz..i admit tat i realy lazy....

becos...i hav alot of assigment is for waiting me to done it...

bt i vy lazy ...T.T

summore..2mr i have class..

""videography''

since i miss tat class 1 time...i nw realy cnt folow up wat lecturer teach d...

i promise.

i wont miss class again..

its is bad habit la...~

mr.thosmas said wil help me..

muahaha..

thx u 1st la....

banana....^^

haiz...

last 9 ...i make a decision...althought i'm sad...bt....this decision....is the best choice 4 us...

yea...i willing to gv up everything..n try to accept & face all of the thing is coming to me...

cheers up elvy soon..

time cn change everything..rite..

n i wil wishes them....'happy 4ever'

good luck...

my frenz ^^

down down down

haiz....

finally..i already in my sweetz sweetz home now..

i hug my mummy..hug my daddy...

becos i realy miss them so much...

i ' m so happy...becos i stil meet up v my sisters them....last 9...

i gave them a suprised..

i dint tel them...i will go find them...

then when i reached...i ask my frenz pick me go their's working place find them...

when i open the door...my sisters SHREEN & PENNY JIE JIE...they stil duno is me...

then i stand 4 a while..hahaa..they jz shout "ELVY''HAHHA..

sis...sweat la u 2..me u all oso tak kenal...stil 'hang' 4 a few minit....hahah

bt i really happy ..really vyvy happy....

hav fun v them again..

LOVE..<3

bt oso sumthing happend on me..

i knew sumthing...

y!!!

y ..u wan make me dissapointed to u...

!!!

i angry....i hate....bt wat cn i do!!!

i cant do anything..jz keep silent ther....

treat like ntg happend..

haiz....

4get it!!!!

me at my sis's house overnite....

tdy woke up...

i ask my frenz pick me go home d...

reached my sweetz home...

i cn feel i vyvy tired..

bt i stil hav many thing havent done yt...

i wanna help he take thing from his mum...

i wanna take my laptop 4 check*stupid me**

i go sifu's shop becos i own his money....

then i oso done my thing 1st ....even i realy vy tired d...

i go take sumthing from my frenz mum.....

then i went to city..find my brother WILL

..

AFTER he check my laptop...i jz knw....

act ntg problem on it...haha..

cheh...

hahaha.get laugh by him..noti bro...bt its ok..seem like ntg....then its ok...i cn put down my worry heart d....haha(broken)

bt i'm so sad..

haha..

becos he say me change becum ugly jor..

haiz....

kek sim ah..kek sim ah...

then go find sifu...

sifu...saw me..oso ask my y my teeth no balance jor geh...

oh no..

i jz realised tat...

shit!!!!!

haiz....wat to do ah..haiz...

i blame my self..

becos be4 of me lazy....so ...din take a good care...

haiz...

regret oso useless d...

haiz..

I VYVY SAD..

I OSO FEEL TAT I BECUM UGLY JOR..

I WAN BECUM PRETTTY MORE & CHARM MORE....

haiz...

jia you!!!

& I NEED MONEY NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WAN PRETTY & THIN LARRRRR........

how jz cn becum pretty leh.....haiz...

T.T T.T...

SAD UNTIL DIE NOW!!!!!!!!

HAIZ~。。。

later stil wan take dinner v my parents...

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY...

LOVE MY DADDY N MUMMY SO MUCH..

MUACKS...

so tired now..my eyes totally wan close d..

=(

sad day...

**i duno wat should i do...iziit this is the best choice 4 us....i confuse...if i gv up...i think...everything wil nt be so complicated..bt the problem is....

when i jz willing to gv up....???time ~~~~**

update**

emm....update blog again~..

act i totally forgot last few day's wat i did at here d....

hiak hiak~..

last few day..

my frenz....poh yen..she came here...& stayed in my house..

thx my lovely housemate...

becos u guys..dun mind she came our house...

v hav alot fun 2gether...

love u sis..

v go pou..v go ate ...many many la..

i'm vyvy happy...

last saturday ...

v went poppy...wow..

awesome...

althought ther vyvy hot like hell...dance floor too small d..

bt ...

i realy happy at ther....

*i love dance **

skip skip~...

i wanna thx *sum1 * here...

tat guy is THOMAS

thx he alot....

becos ..he helped me many thing..thx....

tdy i woke up at 8 sumthing in the morning..

then..after prepared....i went to my college~

luckily tdy class nt vyvy tough...

i stil cn folow up wat lecturer teach...^^

then...2 hour 4 break..

me ,li lian,armani,thomas,carmen,rain & her's bf went Sunway Gizza 4 lunch...

finished our lunch ...v go bk skul again..

for start our class again....

**presentation skills**

when v entered class...

sit on our place...n waiting lecturer coming..

lecturer entered the class..

he mad...i duno y ...y jz few hour he cn become like this..

swt....zz...

hate he so much..

bt. no idea...i stil wan to like him..if nt...i sure nt interested when he teaching...

About 5 sumthing...i oso go bk my hostel...

on9 on9...

miss mr.l so much...hahah..

siao liao la me...

thomas invite ltr go yam cha..^^

i oso invite lilian them too..^^

so boring here.

2mr i wanna go bk my hometown d...

happy...

cn meet my parents d...

haiz..lazy write d..

life boring....

wan go out v frenz d....

tata..

**haiz..so sorry to all my housemate....i duno i should honest to u guys nt...if i honest ..will u ignore me??i worry..so i keep silent...bt at last..i honest to u d..beatrice....hope u all wil dun mind....n wont think tat i'm bad.becos....i oso no idea at all....tough to explain....

anyway..love u all...much much nerh **

boring here..**GLT**

finally...
everthing had been solved...

& i knew wat ur mind thinking now...
so happy...
i love u ...hahhah..

i so lazy update my blog....
so sorry to all my frenz...tat owayz cum view my blog...
hahaa...
u guys keep ask me 'y ur blog ntg special geh'
hahaha...
pai seh lar...

this few day.i realy vyvy lazy...
cant descride hw my life here..
jz cn say ...
so far so good...
ahhahaha.

miss my hometown so much now...
miss my parents...

bt i'm so happy...
next next week.....
i wanna did a thing tat vyvy brave...
hahahaa...

lazy write liao..
**act vyvy boring here...becos is waiting presentation...**hiak hiak ^^

最终还是回到原点。。

很久都没有伤心的感觉了。。
原来。。我的心还是会痛。。
原来我也有付出过。。。

虽然现在一切似乎结束了。。
可能这样也好。。。

没有结果的东西。。
为什么我还要执著。。

希望你会快乐。。

我也应该好好过我的生活。。
既然要放就放了。。

好好读书。。。

希望我真的做得到。。~

**最终还是回到原点**

LIFE....

I'M SO BORING NOW!!!!!!!

LAZY STUDY LO...~

HAIZ!!!

CNT BE LAZY...ELVY SOON~..

presentation~

2mr presentation...
gambateh!!!

elvy soon..
try ur best!!!!